P2 D10 VLCD

Well, Spring Break has come and gone, and with it, taken my weight loss.=(  It's my own fault.  One thing I'm learning, is I have to figure out why I do this to myself...

Nana, the Kids and I all went on an adventure to Lake Arrowhead.  It was great, and we had so much fun, but we didn't eat well, nor did we drink much water.  We came back to Easter, filled with goodies and candy.  SO, I'm back in the saddle today.  I'm taking my drops, drinking my water and trying to recover from this catastrophe.  I didn't weigh myself this morning.  I'm waiting for tomorrow.  I'm chicken to see the number on the scale and I'm hoping that tomorrow it won't be as bad.....

Some reflections on this week.

1.  Eating whatever I wanted made me feel yucky most of the time.  Bloated, gassy, icky and chubby.  Nothing very pretty.

2.  Eating bad leads to bad choices.  Once you've made one bad choice, it's easier to make more.

3.  Get up and move, it does make you feel better.

4.  The emotional beating I put myself through is exhausting and time spent the wrong way.

5.  The whole week I lost site of my devotional. 

Hopefully continuing on this course the right way will make me feel better about myself both physically and mentally.

My devotional book says that the month of April should "In all your ways, acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight".  Proverbs 3:6

That is something that I lost last week, and it didn't keep me in a good place.  What a good reminder!

P2 D4 VLCD

I keep moving the in right direction, but I'm nervous that yesterday is going to catch up with me.

yesterday was hard.  My head was not "in it".  We had Easter candy in the office, and I was just plain hungry.  I had a few pieces of chocolate.  So there, I cheated a little.  I've found in the past on HCG, it usually takes about 2 days for your cheat to catch up with you.  But, I need to focus on things one day at a time. 

This morning was a good loss of -2 Lbs

Starting Weight 199.8
Today's Weight 192.4
Total Loss of  -7.4 Lbs

I'm really anxious to see the 180's again.  I'd like to get back to 175 in this round.  That will get me back to my original ending point.  That's 17.4 pounds to go, I need to average .8 Lbs a day.

Here's to staying focused today!  My devotion read:

"Human weakness, consecrated to Me, is like a magnet, drawing My power into your neediness.  However, fear can block the flow of My Strength into you.  Instead of trying to flight your fears, concentrate on trusting Me.  When you relate to Me in confident trust, there is no limit to how much I can strengthen you."

P2 D3 VLCD

Still plugging along.  Felt pretty good yesterday.  I was REALLY hungry when I got home, but hubby had made one of my favorite dishes on the this diet.  So I gobbled that up.

Woke up to a -2.4 Lbs loss!!!  

Starting Weight: 199.8
Today's Weight: 194.4
Total Weight Loss: -5.4 Lbs

That's in just two days of eating on the low calorie diet.  I'm pressing forward.  I sailed on over to the 190's after Christmas, and the 180's happened over Thanksgiving.  I'd really like to loose at least 20 Lbs in this round so that I can be back down in the 170's. 

Let me share my dinner last night, since I brough it for lunch today.

Citrus Basil Chicken

Chicken Breast (2)

Tomatoes (2-3)

Orange (2)

Basil (handful_

Seasoning (Salt, Pepper etc.)

Chicken Stock (cup or so)

Just brown the chicken in a big pot.  Add enough chicken stock to cover half way up the chicken.  Add the tomato, cut up oranges, a handful of chopped basil and just let it simmer.  This is SUPER tasty!  The basil just adds so much.  The stock, tomatoes and oranges just end up making a really yummy sauce.  Enjoy!

My Devotional said this morning:

I shower blessings on you daily, but sometimes you don't perceive them.  When your mind is stuck on a negative focus, you see neither Me nor My gifts.  In faith, thank Me for whatever is preoccupying your mind.  This will clear the blockage so that you can find Me.

Sometimes when I'm on this diet, I lose focus on what is good, and can only focus on what I can't have.  In those times, I will say a prayer to remind myself that God will get me through this if I ask him.  He wants me to be victorious!  

P2 D2 VLCD - That's what I remember

Yesterday was my first VLCD.  It went well.  I was tempted several times, feeling week to hunger, but my addition of reading my devotional really helped me stay in perspective. 

"Trust Me, one day at a time.  I will equip you to get through this day victoriously."

 Those words stuck in my head.   I thought of Him, looking down on my and smiling when I choose to stick to the plan.  I will be rewarded for sure.  Don't loose sight of that.

Starting Weight:  199.8
Today's Weight:  196.8
Today's loss: -3 Lbs

I'm THRILLED!  That's the HCG I remember!  I'm going to do great.

So far today I've had coffee twice, water, apple, egg whites and sugar free salsa.  I have wheat crackers that I'm acting as my bread stick which is a slight deviation.

I also need to fess up.  On my last two rounds that I "attempted" to do HCG, I also sneaked a few sugar free chocolates.  Today, I went to Target without eating lunch, and I ate one of those chocolates.  I in fact, put a whole bag in my cart to buy, you know, just to have on hand....  Well, I meandered through the clothes, bought nothing, was struck by my words of motivation yesterday and put the bag back.  The temptation is not there.

My devotion today was long, but the part that spoke to me the most was,

"Let My Light shine in you; don't dim it with worries or fears."

I'm not going to worry about being a little hungry, or thinking too much about failing again.  I'm going to keep my eye on the reward, and turn to prayer when it get's a little tough. I will get through this day victoriously.

Starting Over - Re-do P1 Day 1 VLCD

Gosh, it's been a long time since I've even signed in an taken a look at my weight loss blog....  Can we say I've been a bit neglectful?  

I noticed that my latest post was back in May of 2012.  That is nearly a year ago.  A year ago that I was getting all introspective about my weight loss thus far and why I was still feeling FAT.  Well, I have clear memories of what started happening in my personal life in May.  We got some bad news from the IRS (when is it ever good), which began our transition. My husband and two kids moved back in with my parents.  Can we just say that the summer was an emotional roller coaster for me!

So we moved in August, my oldest started Kindergarten, and they we were.  The Fall was all about getting settled and not feeling like we were just visiting.  With the holiday's around the corner, my weight started to creep upward, and I was careless about doing anything about it.  Maybe a little bummed you could say. 

Now that warmer weather has been coming around more, and the day light lasts a little longer, I realize that right now, right this moment, I am REALLY REALLY uncomfortable in my skin.  I don't like this. 

HCG.  It's worked before.  This blog proves it.  I HAVE WILL POWER.  I can do this!

I'm going to share some new things I've found, as well as read my devotional every day.  Maybe there is a reason things aren't clicking.  Here I go again!

Today is my new day one. 

I loaded over the weekend.  I had a a burger, fries, Mexican food, chocolate and peanut butter, Sangria.  I felt stuffed and the scale sure showed it.  I haven't weighed myself in about 4 weeks, so this was it.

Re-do Round 1, Day 1 VLCD
Starting Weight - 199.8 (Good Golly)

My devotional today:

Trust me one day at a time.  This keeps you close to ME, responsive to My will.  Trust is not a natural response, especially for those who have been deeply wounded.  My Spirit within you is your resident Tutor, helping you in this supernatural endeavor.  Yield to His gentle touch; be sensitive to His prompting.
Exert your will to trust Me in all circumstances.  Don't let your need to understand distract you from My presence.  I will equip you to get through this day victoriously, as you live in deep dependence on Me.  Trust me one day at a time.

My word, this is exactly what I needed to hear today.  I'm going to take this diet one day at a time.  If I put my faith in the Lord, he will help give me the strength to make it through.  Each day will be it's own battle, if I stay focused on Him, I won't be distracted by food that I don't need.

Let's try this again!

Well, it's almost been a year that I started trying to do HCG.  I supposed I've been successful.  I've lost around 30 Lbs depending on the day.  It feels good some days, and other days, I feel FAT.  Ugh.  I can remember when I was heavier, that I wished I was 175.  I would have been so grateful for that.  Now, I'm 175, and feel FAT.  I feel like I did when I was 240 pounds.  So does that mean it's all in my head?

Truth is, I don't feel strong.  I don't feel healthy.  I don't feel in control.  But I can't decide what I need to do to change that.  I want to feel good, happy with myself, content... 

Truth is, I haven't committed myself to HCG like I did on my first round.  Do you suppose that's why I feel bad?  I haven't given the diet my 1000% commitment.  Is that why I feel so negative?

Truth is, If I just decide that I'm worth working hard, maybe I will feel good about myself no matter what I weigh.  Commit, do my best, be honest, pray and push forward dam it!

SO that's what I'm going to do. 

I've been half-assing a round of HCG right now, and doing miserably at it.  SO, 21 more days starting tomorrow!  An honest, 1000% effort starting tomorrow.  On Mothers Day, my gift to myself.

My wonderful Hubby is on board.  He's going to help me, and away we go. 

Then, I'm going to take some time off of HCG and try to transition into a life routine.  Working out is on the agenda, it's what's bringing me down!  Summer is around the corner, being outside and being active is what will make the difference.

Here is my pinterest board for recipes.  Making good food on this diet is a must!

Back in the Saddle - Phase 2, Round 4, Day 8

Hello, hello world.  Who ever is reading this...

I'm back at it.  I've given myself a few days to get this thing going, now I can start updating, because I know I'm going to keep this train on the track so to speak.

Today P2R4D8

Starting Weight (after holidays):  185.4

Today's Weight:  177.4

Total Loss:  -8.0

Truth be told, I've seen this number before!  I believe Round 3 produced this number towards the end!  For what ever reason, I wasn't as invested in tracking my progress during Rounds 2 & 3.  Possibly for this reason, both of those rounds were short, sweet, and amounted in a smaller weight loss.  I've decided that this time around, I'm going to push it to 48 days.  It's simple.  More days on VLCD=More Lbs. Lost.

I had some slip ups this weekend.  My sister's birthday, a day off work, All day car shopping.  There was just a lot of things going on and I let myself cheat.  So this hasn't been a cheat free Round!  But in all honesty, I don't think any of them have been.  The trick is to stay prepared.  Plan ahead, have things ready to eat, drink and stay FOCUSED.  Be HONEST!  Don't forget, DRINK WATER!!!!!

Today's Timeline:

5:30am - Woke up, weighed myself, cup of coffee and smidge of creamer.

7:30am - Driving to work, took 1.0ml of drops.

9:00am - Cup of coffee (time to get the water started)
10:00am - Apple and water
12:00pm - Cottage Cheese and pretzels!  Yikes, a cheat.
2:00pm - Apple
5:00pm - Nibbled Becca's Hamburger & another apple.  Also snitched a graham cracker on the way home from kids snack. 

This wasn't the greatest day!  I was feeling disappointed and not at all inspired by anything I had around to eat on the diet.  I'm bored with my food choices today, and that leads to cheats for me anyway.  So, I got on-line, and I found some good blogs and recipes to try and spice things up a bit.  Made a soup out of things I had on hand, so we'll see how that goes.  It made three containers, so there are a few good lunches ready to go.

I posted the blog in my blog roll, but it's HERE too.  Check it out.  It's not just for the diet.  She has other great ideas for maintenance and any other days too!  It will be one I check back with often. 

I hope I don't gain tomorrow.  Gotta get back into finding things I like so I can keep this diet going!!!